Thursday, November 26, 2009

si dia

after 7 days. he called. when i was in the movie,new moon.
after 6 days of crying
after one advice given by a friend of mine
after i became better today
after i chose to go on

u chose to show up today.

making me sick again like 7days ago.



jacob H-O-T-T-O-G-O! RAR! :D

nyum nyum! :D jacob becomes a man. :p went out today with my sister. a lil break from books i shall say. :) went with my oldest,kak dudi. went there quite early..the movie was at 6.40pm but we went there like 5.15pm.

so went to have some early dinner at chilli's! weee! serious kempunan to eat this place. lame kot tidak menjejak kaki. :D rabbit! aku baru bagitau kau mase kite jumpe tu kan? about me and this kempunan with chilli's? weee! dapat jugak! hahahahaa!

dah la sume sister belanja everything. ngeh2..goyang kaki senang hati. :D

about the movie,it was,for me la kan,same la dengan the book. some places they did some changes but not that tukar like what we can see in harry potter. harry potter movies are like the remake of the book. seriously. well..i cant stand not by saying----> JACOB IS HOT YAAWWW.

haha. sumpah handsome. mase die bukak the baju..every girl in that wayang was like "aaaaaa" and every guy was like "pfft". serious la. i heard it la because i was one of the girls yang made sounds u see. haaha. i love jacob now. but i still have my crush on jasper! weeee! he's so cute in that movie even though he had like 1 or 2 lines? he's still cute. :D

jacob and jasper. j&j..i loike.



Monday, November 23, 2009

i feel dah nak putus harapan nak hidup.


Sunday, November 22, 2009


i feel sorry for that person. the anonymous. guess she's just scared of telling me at my face. oh,i'm sorry lil bitch. anyhow, i have my mom to support me and my sisters to remind me of u peasant. and i have lots of good friends. do u?

despite of your famous quote "berlagak lagi bla bla" it makes me realize that yeah,maybe i have been bitching around but ur the one that got offended. i'm sorry..did i steal the spotlight? or did i just didnt see you when u went down the drain? call me gedik,whatever. ur a whore. and i think that's so far lower.

i could just smack your face because i know who you are.

but nah,my hands will get dirty because of your mask of hypocrite. and i need to clean it up and it'll be hard because it'll be sticky with sins.

i am currently writing in english so that your english will get more advanced for you to go to BLS. how nice right? i know. even though i maybe will not go to law faculty,at least i wont see your pathetic face everyday.

good luck bebudak baru nak naik. bububanana.

i know who you are.


new moon

SOOOO happy!! the movie's coming out! and my studying is currently dah nak habis! :D lalalala. despite of the anonymous person..i do have a life and she doesnt. oh well, whatever. i have three people that ajak'ed me to the movie already..not sure who to pick

1)kak oldest sister
2)kak owi..second sister
3)zarith and reen.

i think i'm gonna see with my sisters because of the free ticket and have a great time viewing the second time of jasper with the girls (including u edelin.) :p

i love my life.


Saturday, November 21, 2009

to that motherfucker

"berlagak lagi, padan muka"

well, to cut the story short,there was this motherfucker that told me the exact same line on my blog. ok2. let me tell u,anonymous.

u surfed the internet and u chose my blog.
and u read my post and decided..well.."ayat ni taklah kampung mana..takde dosa kot." aku kan dengki..hati busuk"
weh,otak ko serious cetek weh.

ok,let me get this straight.

aku berlagak,it's fine. maybe aku memang kot. but aku taklah sekeji camni nak letak kat blog orang lepas orang tu sedih nak mampus and u have no idea what i've been thru.

ok,senang cite,ko dapat law eyh? ko dapat degree law eyh? let me ask you one tiny little question..ko budak uitm kan? memang sah sah la ko melayu or bumiputera. but hati dengki macam ko 90% mengatakan ko melayu. ok,so sah sah ko muslim kan?

do you believe in balasan Allah tak? do you believe about the sins ko buat kat satu anak yatim tak?

ko faham tak english ni? meh aku translate, ko percaya balasan Allah S.W.T? ko percaya betapa dosa nya ko anaiya seorang anak yatim?

Allah Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Adil

memang ko sekarang dapat degree, tak ke ko riak? maybe Allah S.W.T boleh tarik bile bile ko nyer result.


Allah S.W.T simpan dosa ko sampai ke akhirat untuk diadili?

maybe ko sempat bertaubat sebelum akhirat,but if ko tak?

but macam mane pun,aku sumpah ko merana seumur hidup.

cube ko fikir sikit.


Friday, November 20, 2009

korang pernah tak rasa rupa nya si dia yang korang minat bukan korang punya?

saya pernah. baru 1 jam lepas. si dia ada girlfriend. cuma cinta itu buta..saya pun terminat si dia. saya ada termimpi si dia akan pilih saya. cuma masa menghalang kita. saya tak pernah sayang kat orang lain selain si dia. kawan kawan saya yang saya minat dulu pun tak boleh lawan walaupun panggil saya sayang. si dia tahu saya sayang dia. dan dia tau saya takkan tinggalkan dia. kawan kawan saya pernah menyuruh saya meninggalkan si dia tapi saya tidak pernah ikut. sesetengah kali..saya terfikir..kawan kawan saya ada tak terfikir..

aku dah cakap dah..

saya harap tak.

sekarang pukul 3 pagi. saya mengasingkan diri dari mak saya sebab saya taknak mak saya tahu saya sedih. so saya mengurungkan diri saya dalam bilik. saya sekarang tengah menangis macam orang gila..mata saya bengkak dan suara saya serak. kepala saya pun pening.

kawan kawan saya kata-jangan nangis..lelaki itu tidak berharga untuk saya nangis kepadanya. tapi bukan saya yang nak nangis..saya pun nak tunjuk kuat. tapi sayang sangat..saya tak boleh. saya sayang sangat kepada si dia.

seperti apa yang saya tahu akan terjadi..dia pilih girlfriend nya. lalu,saya berfikir,lucky nya pompuan ni. macam mana cara pun, boyfriend awak still sayang dan pilih awak.

so,awak jaga si dia untuk saya. jangan sakitkan hati dia. jaga si dia baik baik


dia la si dia.

saya sayang si dia sampai bila bila


Thursday, November 19, 2009


hey people. because of some reason that i cant explain here, my computer will be rampas from me. so, i will not update my blog, insyaAllah,selama 3 weeks.

please wait for me patiently.

i love u guys.


Tuesday, November 17, 2009


well, when i saw this movie sumpah teringat semester one when all of my group still attached as one. the lemon trees. i miss them so much.

phobia was the first movie i saw with them. it was nice. scary tahap dewa but when we sticked together dulu,it was nice kan? we laughed and we scream like shit together. sumpah best but we ended up pecah. thanks to some people.

anyhow, this time i went with my ex schoolmate,rabbit. or her real name-rabiatul. hehe. :D it was so damn nice jumpe this rabbit putih of mine nih!! like 2 years kot tak jumpe! we met up kat depan cold storage KLCC and trus dapat kan the tickets and when we were lining up, terjumpe another CBN girl,ain. but she went to see another movie. so tak leh jerit sama sama. :p

after the tickets, we had about 2 hours to jalan jalan and we had lunch kat foodcourt. cakap cakap what went by. all the crushes,university. owh yeah,now rabbit is in UiTM arau. cool! :D and terserempak pulak with anis farhah,my kuantanese mate. terkejut gler terjumpe die. haha. we salam salam and went on.

after walking and stuff,we went to the cinema.

sumpah la cite tu taklah takut sangat. but if u wanna see it, be prepared for a lot of terkejut scene and the stories. there are 5 stories. started with a guy being a monk and met up with a ghost. not that scary. the second one was a guy being in the same ward with this coma guy. this one for me is quite scary actually. the third one, about japanese backpackers hitchhking with a weird lorry. the fourth one, about a woman selling cars and the history of the cars. this one..ok laaaa. and the fifth, damn. this one is the scariest among all BUT it was the funniest. bleh tak? in all of the scary movie i was pulling my head out, this one sumpah lawak kot. i was laughing and laughing until cam tak takut. so, i salute the directors for making me relax again after watching 5 ghost stories weh! cool sial! wuhu!!

4 and a half star! see it!


Sunday, November 15, 2009

dahulu kala

when dalilah tagged me in this 3 photos..i was like DDDAAAMMMNNN..sumpah lawak sab ko camni dulu.

now i get it when i people say i've changed from my image in high school. pergh.

C-B-N is hot to go



i'm sorry for the people around me thinking i've changed.

alot of things are happening to me in one -BOOM- like that..

so maybe i will not be so happy when u called

so maybe i will not reply when u message

so maybe i will not feel guilty and pujuk balik when u merajuk

but tell can i do that if i'm not strong in this condition?

my family is giving me the hardest thing along side with my already bad life.

they asked me to prove by words why i should stay in law. and if the answer is not good enough, they will take the power to change me into another course

my life depending on them? i'm the one that will learn,will read all the books. not them and they want to take dictatorship into my life? to control what i am trying to do in the future?

tell me people,how exactly am i supposed to prove by words?

or i should give them an idea..which is to give me support and guidance to make me have the courage to hold those law books again and to give my best shot when the exam occur


oh Lord,give me some guidance and strength.

miss i

i miss iqa to be my room mate

i miss sha to be my sama otak

i miss hanan to be the tempat i peluk

i miss nana to luahkan perasaan

i miss sarah to buli her and her blurry face

i miss ida and lawak bodohnya

i miss salma and to laugh and cry with her

i miss ed dengan gelaknya

i miss eikin dengan braces

i miss finie jage me when i demam

i miss fatin to be my first friend dekat jengka

i miss zaty to be my mak tiri and marah marah

i miss nad to do stupid jokes and terguling guling

i miss adib because she's my only fan

i miss tengku nab to be my devil kat jengka

i miss shubby sebab kitorang tak puas ati dengan each other since semester one

i miss hazirah when she say sushi girl

i miss haha sebab saya suke buli dia

i miss anis sebab she's always there

i miss ila because she's the most ayu girl in the campus

i miss nana because she's my keramat friend

i miss firza because she's like a sister to me

i miss iylia pompuan because she's there when ur down

i miss fadly because he's my adik

i miss amirul because he's my guitar player

i miss megat because he's my granpa

i miss is because he's cool

i miss iylia because he's like the best debater

i miss zat because i'm the only one who cant understand his jokes and will say-bodo la to cover up

i miss naim because he's my penguin

i miss dzul because he's my pakcik and lawak bodoh nya terunggul

i miss izwar because he's my pembuli

i miss akmal because die abang sulong yang garang

i miss hazlief because he tells me his problem

i miss ehsang because he's funny

i miss ash because he's the most hyper guy i ever known

i miss rey because of his horny face

i miss uitm

i miss law A semester 1

i miss law D semester 3

i miss my life

sorry sesape yang terase but sumpah aku miss korang. :) saje je nak melayan diri. lol.

Saturday, November 14, 2009


hey people. because i need to run away from my past to bring a new life. i need to switch my blog into a private one. so give me ur email. so i can invite you guys to view it. i'll give about one week for u guys to give me your email in my comment button.

thanks alot. :)

this is for you before i say goodbye

Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images


Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine

Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do


i never been so disappointed with my own self. i feel so sial. ye ah. memain je..from start of semester 3..stok main je. hah..dah kedepek kat muke sendiri. result this sem sucks. the hope for me going to law degree is so jauh. i cant even see it. kabur kabur je nampak shah alam.

but even though all of this happened,i will not give up. there's a chance. i need to do well in the retake of paper. sumpah malu dowh. but sape suruh memain cam cibai kan?

but sumpah,i sumpah myself..i will do my best and i WILL get 3 pointer and will proceed to BLS.

ini sekadar sepakan kat muka betapa main nya saya di dalam dunia ini.

i woke up.

now this is the time i stand up.

for those who raised,congrates,to those who failed,let's go to war together.

InsyaAllah, we can do this.


Friday, November 13, 2009

Ya Allah

bagilah aku kekuatan.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

oh no

it feels like my heart being cut into half and the pain is making me hard to let my tears go down. susah nya perasaan bila kehilangan si dia. it's 2.00am in the morning. just came back from vietnam and this is what i get. now i cant sleep. i cant think. oh no, this is what people say when we lost someone we love.

it feels crappy. it does.

leave me alone.



hey people! just arrived back from hanoi,vietnam. i'm so damn tired. i have a lot to tell u guys. will update as soon as i can. love u guys.


when i was on the plane,read the newspaper and got to know about my friend,wan hanna syafiqa being robbed and kidnapped. weh,sumpah i was like terkejut gler.

get well soon aite? be strong hanna. we'll always be there for u girl. let us pray that she will find her strength back.


Saturday, November 7, 2009

bola sepak? me?

laaa. i never get involve in this sports in any way. serious. kat mamak pun seboleh2 nya mesti ambek meja hadap tempat lain. haha. i hate bola sepak ok? i actually wished my boyfriend wont like bola sepak but fikir balik,saya mahu ade boyfriend yang suka bola. so we can like cheer together,laugh together. ok,shut up now.

orite,so after the roadtrip i told u about? the haram roadtrip? pergh, i went there and jumpa them in person. they were quite cool guys to hang out with and they paid all the beverages and shisha. ehehe.

so now,i am currently watching bola sepak. on tv1. ahhahaa. i love bola sepak now. hahaha. if only negeri sembilan is playing. HAHAHAHA. bias? i know!


hobin jang hobin!


i want u. i'll wait.

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can’t have everything
Don’t cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don’t cha love in vain
Cause love won’t set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just cant let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they’re the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can’t stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I’m just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So and it’s just that I can’t see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don’t say victim
Don’t say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don’t care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

moo moo

aww, i dont know why but when i saw this kucing infront of my house..i miss my campus' kucing named 'moo moo'.

i miss that kucing.

one day die teman me sampai pagar and waited for me as i walked to the 7-11 infront of my campus and jumped when i arrived back. serious cute. and ed took care of it by beli'ing him food. and some other houses macam tak suka sebab moo moo suka kencing kat kasut dorang. sorry people. bad moo moo! :p

and moo moo dengan suka hati mak bapak nya masuk our house and will sleep in our house. aawww.i miss that lil guy.

love u and miss u lil moo moo!!


a breakfast

laa, i forgot to tell u about a breakfast i had with my mom and my oldest sister,kak dudi. best sangat because my sister is working so agak susah nak makan luar with her. and she is married. huhu. i got roti planta on my pinggan and my mom and kak dudi took ape tah..lupe name food tuh. lol. and all of us ambek teh tarik! yum yum! :D we had our breakfast kat NZ wangsa maju. :)

love that day


Wednesday, November 4, 2009


the lovely cupcakes bought by reen. :)

me and reen. :)

aiman, aliff and izzat

zarith,edelin,aina,dida,me and reen

aliff wane hijau, me blur,zarith camwhore, aina baju hitam,aiman kat belakang

zarith,aliff,aiman,izzat and edelin

penat ok? :D

the three gents

reen,zarith,edelin and me

reen riding my back. :p

nice! :D

them and bbq. :)


edelin and reen

all the four of us. :)

this was like last sunday. me and my friends..zarith,edelin and reen had this lovely idea of throwing a bbq *slash* makan makan *slash* potluck *slash* hari membawa cinta. laaa,the last part for me je kot. haha. ok ok. continue.

venue- edelin's house in mont kiara
date- 1st november 2009
people came-me,izzat,zarith,aliff,reen,aiman,edelin,dida and aina

i got up pretty early because i was incharged with the potato salad and drinks. and by 1.30pm zarith showed up to pick me and after that me,zarith and aliff took izzat at his house. sampai je, aiman showed the way up and the api takleh start. from bright shiny day until dah mendung baru the api..thanks to our gents...decided to berapi.

but after the chicken was done, and after the udang was on the fire, it rained. sedih tak? haha. and it wasnt like rintik rintik ok people? it was a storm. thank you.

and we decided that we had to angkat the table sume bawah the roof and tertinggal la izzat,edelin,aiman,aliff,zarith, and reen terkapai kapai menjaga api dan makanan dibawah and leaving me and dida feeling guilty sebab takleh tolong. serious la..hehe.

and we ate our food,talked about school again. for your information people, this group of mine..zarith,me,reen and edelin is a goup memang since form1. huhu. and we were laughing our heads off with aina's jokes. and dida senyap sebab sejuk katanya. haha. tengah makan still hujan kena. dah la pakai shirt putih. so,yes. bayangkan sendiri. huhu.

after that, dida needed to leave. so zarith and aliff hantar dida to kl sentral and all of us duduk balik and talked again. aina pun balik this time jugak. sampai zarith and aliff sampai balik. and all of the girls nak mandi swimming pool which for me, unlucky that day,i cant swim because of sebab sebab tertentu. huhu. and they played with me watching from tepi swimming pool. sedih sial. haha. i ended up lepaking with the guys kat tepi swimming pool. haha.

and the time was up. kitorang kena balik. semua same time curfew. about 8pm. haha. and i need to follow zarith's time. so we packed our stuff and headed home.

love that day. love u guys. :)


Monday, November 2, 2009

road trip haram

huhu! one of the things that i cant never EVER lupe from my life kot. hahaha. this is it! the roadtrip that a person should be doing now or never. this kidda roadtrip..u guys must achieve like once your lifetime..AT LEAST. uhuhu.

the stuuuurrryyy goes like this..

on the lovely evening of wednesday,29th september 2009,we were discussing how the hell nak ambek baju dinner kat rumah masing masing. but fikir balik..hanan je kan? hahaha. so..i had a nice idea--------->jom sewa kete pegi kuala lumpur mari kawan kawan? and they all said yes!

we called and called..we got a kancil from this lovely kakak.

so..the next day,we got the car. the plan was to leave kuantan at 6pm. but we got in trouble with the car. it was hard to drive. there was five of us. me,hanan,zaty,nad and eikin. yang boleh drive,3 orang je. me,hanan and zaty. zaty took the wheel first sebab i said i need to see how to bawak manual car first. and on the highway,i'll take over. but the kereta hated us so much..kitorang pulangkan balik and we called tommy,a sewa kereta guy. we got a kancil jugak. but lepas tunggu sume ni..we ended up leaving kuantan at 10.00PM. seriously. and we made it to temerloh in just one hour. we were so damn hungry that time. nasib ade satu kedai bukak. alhamdulillah! :D and i took over.

i drove laju gler. so did zaty. we ended up in kl at 12.30 camtu. and we drove straight using MMR2 and went straight to bangi for hanan's crib. went there and salam salam with her mom and took her sister to bed..yang paling manja with her tuh. and we waited kat bawah and zaty took over back the car. i slept and woke up..dah sampai seremban. and we were like kidda sesat here and rupanya..nak jumpa kawan nad..acap. so,went to their place. rumah berani masuk..huhu. but mase nad tengah jiwang ngan acap,we went on taking pictures with my fisheye! wuhu! :D and after all the dating habis..we went to a kedai mamak at 4 in the morning! with the guys..kawan acap. panjang and jai. went to shisha and some water and off we went on with our roadtrip haram!

by the rising of the sun,we were on the road to go tp eikin's place. i drove from seremban to pj. but something came up and we went to kawan eikin's place instead of somewhere else. :) and me,hanan and eikin went into her house. and her room was like ade aircond and stuff..and the katil was like...mari sini sabrina..tido kejap. i was like...fucckkk..gler best dowh if tido. so..eikin asked for her permission to rest kejap because her friend pun dah bgn that was i think about 8.30 camtu. i called zaty and nad to go inside as well. the kawan wanted to go to asked to sleep sampai la her friend dah siap nak gi class and we go off serentak la. but all of us takleh bangun. and the family bought us some freaking good roti canai! pergh! with milo panas! pergh! haha. sedap dowh!

so we went on with our trip by stopping by at sunway pyramid. by this was hanan time to drive. me and zaty ke'ok dah. haha. we went in and saw a movie that i cant forget!! and the kelakar part was from 5 of us yang tengok the movie..i think 3 people was asleep. lawak. only me and hanan je kot tengok. hahaha. and i bought a beanie hat kat forever21 and off we go nak balik. passed by my house..but was afraid to give my mom a shock of her life to see me in kuala lumpur in a kancil that we drove about 265km from kuantan! so..went on gombak,had our lunch and i took over the wheel until temerloh and zaty took over plak. sampai lepas UMP (university malaysia pahang) our tayar pecah. BODOH KAN? hahaha. and we stopped dekat tepi road yang sangat gelap. it was like 6.30 camtu and we got stucked until 8.30 camtu until tommy came and took over and gave us his kembara. malam tu plak ade this sambutan hari raya. we didnt bring our baju we cant get in..lama lama we just went in..buat muka tembok. undress,showered and laugh out loud terkenang balik kitorang baru buat roadtrip haram yang sangat sangat best.

i love u guys so much for being crazy as me. :D

sorry..banyak gambar takleh masuk sebab sebab tertentu. hola!